Topic Originator: kozmasrightfoot
Date: Sat 12 Aug 19:00
There are good and bad drug dealers. There's the decent bloke who just sells a bit of smoke to friends and family etc just so they can have a free bit for yourself.
But then there are the rat **** dealers that sell the worst stuff,sell to kids,sell to people that weren't even looking for any(there you get into human trafficking).
Different subject but those first kind of dealers would be obsolete if the government saw sense and made weed legal and some of the other slightly more dubious drugs that would help people like me that suffer from various anxieties. Life could be more pleasurable to live if I wasn't stressed about doing things that other people just naturally do. For example,it's a real effort for me to go to shops to pick up milk and bread. Why? You ask. I don't know, my brain just works differently. Unfortunately the drugs that help with that condition are addictive so it's rare for the doctor to give you any. If they sell them at a decent price the addiction surely wouldn't matter.
I'm clearly talking rubbish but there is truth in their somewhere. Why can't they invent a drug like lorazepam that makes life so much less uncomfortable but it doesn't have any addictive side effects. You can use them only when you think you need them without the urge to take them when you don't need them. That's the dream because I really struggle with almost every aspect in life.
I know my dad reads this is the first time he will know off this. It's a mental illness that many people suffer from,there is absolutely nothing that you can do to help me. Im not a drug addict, I take prescribed anti depressants that keep the anxiety at bay(most of the time) and the occasional over the counter,legal to buy pain killers.
I admit that I feel bad for not making more of an effort to visit gran,but that is genuinely part of my illness,I would feel totally awkward the whole time,it's just how my brain works, I'm totally gonna go and see her soon though.
I'm on a roll so I may as well be more honest but I'm sorry I'm not a better son, I'm not a serial killer but I'm nothing to brag about. I'm a proper nice person though,I treat people with respect and make most laugh,some folk just don't get me. But we can't all like everybody. Two amazing grandkids,Archie is so like me I can see patterns emerging. Hopefully he's a mini me that's super full of confidence so does things differently. He'd could really have a great life. Esmes more of an enigma,she's a total diva and Archie annoys her which is sad as he gets along with everybody. My money is on her being a rock star. So,weirdest text ever as we're not exactly close,I'm just not that kind of guy,but expect the occasional text of nonsense. Next time we see each other it'll just be back to small talk and pleasantries. Feel free to moan about your life over text if you want,never need to talk about it in person. I'm going in the bath now as I've been working. The bus company has totally changed the timetable,it's now two busses to get there and two buses back,that'll take some getting used to,they're just penny pinching and making every weekend commuters lives,there will be an uproar and many a letter of letter of anger at its most irate. I might send one myself.
Well,I know your not much of a talker but honestly,it's liberating to write stuff down you wouldn't normally say. Great start for the pars,think I just follow tho scores now but I really enjoy men's tennis,it's a wonderful soap opera where Murray look like he won't be number 1 next week, Roger will take that honour. I'm a big fan. Bye